made my day .

so today .

was ohkay. english was banggin lol. me, my bestfrennnn andre( not bestfriendforever darnell, or bestfriend quotel, or bestestfriend JR [4bestfriends guys lol]), corey and casey[sp?] had a relationship convo. the wholeeee class. aint get shxt done hah. it was great. i love them . and thennnn the rest of the day went great. left schooL and drove home :D again . thennnn i was tlkin to bestfrennn .. and right now we plannin on goin job huntin together w/ mom and then study drivin for a while .. woooo. makin moves. i wrote a poem today about my feelings toward " problems " cough cough . and it was deep. i used big words and everything lol . im debating on whether i should post it or not. its still in the making tho . uh, ASLO thanks to eevryone that commented me bout my "deep thinking" blog :D hah . i appreciate all the love . i didnt know people really read this lol. makes me feel good. umm , yea. right no life is iight. confusin as hell but iight. i need to stop trying to please evryone else .. someone told me that today out the blue and, now i cant stop thinkin bout it . hmm . well yea, bout to go get dre. bBL .

xo .
jessicadenisemiller ♥

deep thinking .

so; church today had me thinking . it had alot to do w/ relationships and things of the nature butttt, it had to do with forgiveness and admitting faults as well. and as i sat out in the audience i couldnt help but let the tears fall. it seems like recently my life and desicions have been non-stop and fast pace.. maybe i should slow down. ive come from alot of hatred and problems that many dont know about in my past :: only like 3people know the full life story. and looking back there is so much i could have and should have done differently. even the recent problems and misunderstanding in my life. ive been hurt by so many and ive hated them. and thats wrong . i dont wanna continue that thought path. *sigh. ive been thinking so hard about how i could ever forgive them. how i could not hate them.. and ive come to the conclusion that we all lose sight of life and where we stand. people and things change. attitudes and ideas as well; so i wanted to let anyone reading this kno that if u and i ever got into a disagreement or any type of problem.. im truly sorry. i dont wanna have grudes. life is to short for this. and if u ever hurt me , i forgive you. we all need mercy to live each day. and problems of the life we live, shouldnt be the first things on our priority list. i hate no one. and i will not be held by the past.

im sorry, i forgive, and i love.

im free.



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jessicadenisemiller